Back to work

Pray for me.

I’m going back to work this week.

I’ve been home for 12 weeks with the new baby and I kinda love it.

I have a day job and that is a blessing. It’s a good job. I just…

I’ve grown tired of good. That’s not good enough anymore. I need great.

Let me explain, I’ve spent the last few years with my dreams happily on hold.

Why? Because my life was in metamorphosis and that took up a lot of space and energy. I went through a divorce, saw my mom battle breast cancer and win! I fell in love again, got remarried, forming a blended family and topped it all off by having another baby. So needless to say, the stability of my good job was good for the time being. But…

Giving birth to this baby has brought my dreams right back to the surface. Dreams of unlocking the life I want.

This life includes time to devote to my passions: cooking, writing, reading.  And picking up my older daughter from school every day so she doesn’t have to go to aftercare, which gives us more time to dish about things like the caterpillars she found at recess and a crush she may have on a certain classmate. Being home means witnessing everything that’s happening with the baby because every day she’s discovering something new, like how to blow bubbles and squeal and giggle.

It’s knowing when the mail gets here, and taking that moment to walk outside and let the sun warm my face.

It means I have the time to keep the kitchen sink dish free and the pantry organized, and let me be honest about this, watch Wendy Williams, Steve Harvey and Ellen while also taking naps as needed.

But today, I go back to work. I will spend 2 hours commuting and 8 hours confined within four windowless walls beneath fluorescent lighting with a space heater at my feet to kill the chill of conditioned air.

Now, I’m inspired to do more with my hours than that. From now on, I will do something extra each day to get me closer to my dreams. I’ll be treating that most precious commodity of time with more respect. I’m building a better life for myself and my family. It starts here. Literally.

It starts with a vision. I see new titles in my future. I will be a full-time blogger, author and own a cafe.

The time I’ve spent on hold has given me a new perspective and more wisdom. I understand better than ever before that this journey will take time and it will also take commitment and hard work. It may not be easy, but it will be fun and it will be worth it.

What would you trade in your day job for? Are there any dreams you’ve placed on hold?